If I Only Had a Toilet

But first (one can never rush these things), have I mentioned how much I like fruit? Well, I do — I just love it. One of the great joys of travelling to an agriculturally rich country like Brazil, and one predominantly tropical, is the great variety of fruit that is so readily available. Some people may go there for sex — I go for the fruit. Call me a fruit tourist if you must, I will proudly wear the label.

Just about every hotel in Brazil serves a “continental” breakfast with an eye-popping banquet of fresh fruit: mangoes, papayas, guavas, grapes, pineapples, melons, figs, bananas — on and on, all you can eat, all served with steaming pots of café com leite and freshly baked pãezinhos (small French rolls) — crisp on the outside, warm and chewy inside — with cheese and jam and the creamiest butter. This is heaven for me — Heaven!

The only problem with heaven: if you’ve recently had it and now can’t get it, then you are probably closer to some kind of hell. And that, my friends, succinctly sums up my third afternoon on board the jangada. Instead of craving ice cream, I started craving fruit. And one type in particular — watermelon.

In Brazil, watermelon is usually consumed as a juice (suco de melancia), made by blending up chilled pieces of melon, straining out the seeds and pulp. The resulting nectar is so refreshing and delicious, so utterly thirst quenching — it is a beverage fit for the gods. Sprawled out in the searing heat, I couldn’t stop thinking about that heavenly juice. Glass after imaginary glass I quaffed but it wasn’t enough. I saw myself swimming in it, doing backstrokes, splashing it around, diving up and down — completely submerged in it — a red sea of it — a red sea of chilled watermelon juice. I rolled my head on my scratchy anchor line pillow and moaned pathetically.

On the bright side, thinking about all that juice had a stimulating effect. Where for the longest time it had been deathly silent, I started to feel portentous rumblings below my navel. And not only rumblings, but the squeaking of hinges long since opened, the clanging of hammers on frozen pipes, and the hissing of gases quickly releasing — noxious, high pressure gases. All this action clearly indicated one thing: my desiccated friend was creeping along and would soon reach its final destination—the living sea.

Finally!  (cue the trumpets)

Awkwardly I got up and waddled aft to the transom, the location where such activities occur. (They don’t call it the poop deck for nothing.) Behind the icebox was the only place to get any privacy on board that dinky raft. Arriving, though, I was presented with a much more practical problem. How, exactly, would I perform the dirty deed?

I should say right now that I’m not very good at squatting, and I don’t know why. It could be genetics — my Puritan hips being formed too tight. Or maybe I’m just not limber enough down where it counts. Whatever it is, I can never manage to get into a position with my feet flat on the floor, my knees sufficiently bent, and my weight properly centered so I feel stable enough, and therefore comfortable enough, to fully let it rip.

I spent a month hitchhiking around Morocco once (a beautiful country very similar to Southern California geographically) and going to the potty always posed a problem. No matter how often I tried, and I tried just about every day, I invariably wound up spread out in a small dark room, twisted around with a hand on the wall behind me for support, while rocking back and forth on the balls of my feet to properly position the ordnance directly over the target, a hole in the floor.  Bombs away . . .

Back at the stern this was going to be a problem. With nothing behind me but the wide open ocean, there was no wall there to give me support. This was one of those situations that required creative thinking. But with the pressure rapidly building down under, creative thinking was in short supply. Desperately I looked around for a solution. When my eyes lit upon the steering bench, I knew I had my answer. At just the right height and distance from the transom, the banco do governo was the perfect thing to hold onto while I hung my own lily-white banco over the water.

Frantically I struggled to free the top button of my shorts, my bandaged finger sticking out like a rotting bockwurst. The buttonhole must have shrunk — I couldn’t get it off.  Had anyone seen me there, they would have witnessed the proverbial man about to crap in his pants — squirming about with his knees pinched together, pleading for deliverance, “Oh, come on. Come on, god dammit!”  All that hip shaking only increased the pressure below, making it clear I was running out of time

With a vigorous yank I freed the button. Yes!  But when I grabbed the zipper to pull it down . . . What?  No, no, no — not again! I tugged on that thing like a madman but it just wouldn’t budge — not even a silly little millimeter.

More frantic squirming before I realized I didn’t actually have to lower the zipper to drop my shorts. Uh-Duh!  But this wasn’t so easy — the shorts were damp and tightly fit. I had to inch one side down and then the other, while delicately wriggling my bottom to help.
Easy. Easy, now . . .

Finally the shorts got low enough and fell to the deck.  And as soon as they did I kicked them forward. Yes, that Moroccan trip had taught me one thing: pooping on your pants is almost as nasty as pooping in them.

All the hip waving had brought me to the very brink, intestinally and nautically. And with the colonic buzzer about to ring, I grabbed that banco with my right hand and jumped back onto the transom’s rail with both feet. This, I realized too late, was not the wisest thing to have done.

Calamity comes in threes — so the wives’ tale goes. While I don’t normally believe in that sort of thing (knock on wood), this time the tale was right on target.

In my desperation to get my shorts off, I had completely forgotten about my tender instep. When that tender instep landed squarely on top of the raised toe rail, I was bluntly reminded of my little red spot. “AH!”  I cried out in agony, quickly jumping up while at the same time swinging my left arm down — forcefully smacking my cut finger right on the calçador. OH!  The pain was so blinding now, so utterly debilitating, I couldn’t even scream. But my knees gave way and I dropped like a rag doll on top of the steering bench.

And that is where the third calamity struck.

I like to think of myself as a good multitasker, able to keep several balls in the air at a time. When I’m not sailing on a tiny raft in the middle of nowhere off some forgotten coast, I manage construction projects for a living — usually large public projects. It’s a job ideally suited for my Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder. Every day is different — every hour is different: dealing with recalcitrant subcontractors (That’s not in my contract!), demanding owners (That’s in your contract!), immense egos (also known as architects), litigation phobic engineers (Just multiply by a factor of 2), litigation philic attorneys (Just multiply by $450 per hour), malfunctioning equipment, union strikes, material delays, unhappy neighbors, countless change orders, and dysfunctional public agencies that don’t seem to understand how the real world works, and even if they did, don’t have the money to pay for it anyway.  And on some days, all of this happens before the morning coffee break.

So multitasking is something I am very familiar with. But really, when you get right down to it, when the pedal hits the metal, so to speak, most of us can only focus on one thing at a time — just one thing. Believe what you want, but please don’t text and drive.

Now that the focus of my attention had shifted from one pressing matter — keeping my lower O-ring clamped shut — to another — the stunning pain in two parts of my body — something had to give. And give it did, though not as I expected. Because when that lower O-ring finally gave way, the only thing that came out was a hairy old fart that blasted across the ocean like a thundering broadside.  ­
Oh, sweet Jesus . . .

The foul wind was certainly humiliating, but it wasn’t my “third calamity.” That came next — or I should say — it didn’t come next. Because what came out next was nothing at all.

Draped over that banco, bundinha no ar (ass in the air), I could feel that something was still in there — knock, knock, knocking on heaven’s gate — and that something wanted to come out. And I really wanted it out — lord knows — I wanted nothing more right there. So I stayed with my chest on the bench, waiting for the pain to subside, while inching my knees forward to put me in a position to better take care of business. And then I tried — with all my heart I tried — grunting and groaning, panting and moaning, pushing with every fiber of my being until I was ready to pass out and couldn’t push anymore. But nothing came out.  Nothing!

Close, again, but still no cigar . . .

Gasping for breath, I realized I was on the wrong tack. Bearing down would only make it worse. I had to relax. There are special muscles made exactly for this, and if I could just settle down — nature would eventually run its course. Hard as it was, I forced myself to calm down. I cleared my mind of all restricting thoughts and I focused — yet again — on my breathing.

Deep breath . . . Take another deep breath . . . Just keep breathing . . .

I even did that little chanting thing I do (albeit at a lower volume) which normally works so well.

Come on . . . Come on . . . Come to papa . . . Come on . . .


My patience quickly ran out and I started to push again with a vengeance. But I soon gave up, afraid that something would burst inside. I was too plugged up. Dehydration and a poor diet had taken their toll, and this after only three days at sea. What would happen if I was out there longer? Looking back now it’s easy to laugh, but acute constipation has been a bane to seamen throughout sailing history, with complications that were often quite serious (cramping, intestinal tearing, infection, septicemia), sometimes resulting in death. And a painful death it was.

Thoroughly defeated, I stayed on that bench for several minutes without moving an inch. I knew I had to get up — was worried Mamede would soon come out and catch me in another compromising position. I would have to explain — something a man never likes to do with his pants down — and he would remember; Mamede would always remember: Yes, he was a nice man — a little different — from California, I think — hardly ate — and poor thing, he was very prone to accidents.

Thankfully no one appeared and I was able to pull myself together without too much haste.

Next chapter: Water Water Everywhere